Dear Todd,
Dawn Ziegler has been my best friend for 28 years. We met when I was 8 and she was 10. I remember celebrating the 4th of July Bi-Centennial with her on a beach in Los Angeles. We, of course, went off without our parents and caused them much alarm while we were locked in one of the first of our many famous conversations.
She has been the truest of friends and I can only hope to be able to go on without her in the world. I am still in shock, wondering when I get to wake up from this nightmare. Waiting for her to come back and wonder where the heck is all her stuff?!?! I have some of her precious things, I will gladly give them back.
We used to ride her horses, crazy-wild along the Santa Cruz mountain tops, hands mane-entangled, laughing our asses off, living moments of the many dreams we had. We had entire personas and scenarios within which we would endlessly play. We had Deeds of Ownership for our imaginary horses and blood lines of royalty for ourselves.
Sharing our poetry and stories with each other was second nature and such a thrill. She has always been so very talented. Our visions of unicorns and dragons and heroic acts are still vibrant and alive in my mind.
I, too, have been anxiously awaiting the completion of Andavan. She better send me a draft… so I can proof it! I have always been her spelling/definitions guru… funny that… She would ask me (even up until last week) how to spell something, even when she had an online dictionary at her disposal, for old-time’s sake or simply to let me feel brilliant… I keep looking for her on AIM, wishing that I could define or spell something for her, whereas she is defining something altogether new for herself…
I know that when it is my turn to follow, her hand will be the first one reaching for mine and her smile will beem and her twinkling eyes will look into mine and it will be as if no time has passed…as is always the case with us.
I want to thank you for your open letter to her. It moved me so very much and I know that she is grinning like an idiot wherever she is because of it. Being a fan of your mother’s work for so long, she and I were both excited when she made your aquaintance. I’m a particular fan of the Crystal Singer. And, you KNOW what a fan Dawn is of the Dragon Riders…
Your friendship and support helped strengthen her resolve and confidence even more and I thank you for that from the bottom of my heart. Knowing that she was in the happiest place and time of her life, knowing that she had a family of friends around her that believed in her so much and knowing that she lived up to being the hero she wanted to be gives me much comfort during this unimaginable time.
We were two odd peas that formed our own odd pod and her love and friendship fill me up to overflowing… how I will miss her and yet, she is even more with me now than ever before, if that’s possible. We were ever together and thick as thieves. She’s still right with me, nudging me along and hugging me and poking me when I get too heavy and serious…
Thank you again for being her friend and for your admiration of her writing and her spirit. Please know that it meant so very much to her.
She is truly a Shield Maiden of Rohan and she will always be my hero.
With joy for having been blessed with her presence, with sorrow for her early departure… although, if this is the price I must pay for having had her in my life, I will willingly pay it until the end of my days.
Blessings to you, good man, and with deepest gratitude,
Ashley
Dear Ashley,
Thank you for your lovely letter and for agreeing to share it here online.
Dawn truly was a marvelous person. I am only beginning to suspect the huge number of people whose lives she touched — and who were enriched by her.
— Todd
Ashley also said that if any of Dawn’s friends want to contact her, they can e-mail her at jiggymama@earthlink.net.